December 2010
I hate myself.
plain and simple.
ChelseaGnar: Never rewarded →
gnightgnar:
I do so much for those around me, & for some reason I still end up with the shit end of everything. I hate seeing the people who already have everything… Get everything handed to them. I hate being the one to bitch about so much lately, but I am just so fed up with everything right now. Everyone…
WatchI kind of love them. a lot.
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don't tell me.
This is to one last day in the shadows, And to know a brothers love, This is to New York City angels, And the rivers of our blood, This is to all of us, To all of us, So don’t tell me if I’m dying, Cause I don’t wanna know, If I can’t see the sun, Maybe I should go, Don’t wake me cause I’m dreaming, Of angels on the moon, Where everyone you know, Never leaves...
December 2009.
18th was the day you had me. 20th was the day you introduced me to the rest of my life.
January was when it all got so much better. I love my life. it’s all thanks to you.
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relative ease.
Clinch your fist, knuckle down and bite your lip, this was never meant to be so permanent. it’s too late for my patience and grace, I’ll repeat what you said. I think youre better off dead. Draw your pistol. don’t you dare hesitate, because I’m gunnin for you, just like youre gunnin for me. Dont be shy, aim it high and to the right, you better make it count. you...
“Sleep, I’m the insomniac in this city…”
not anymore.
they looked like strong hands.
I’m not larger than life, I’m not taller than trees. Do I mean what I say? Is it just this disease where I never go home. Never telling the truth how this life eats away. Not admitting I’m fake and I’m questioning whether this whole thing was worth it to die poor and all alone? And I look so strong when the weight of all the world don’t take its toll. And...
somedays.
I just get really sick of living.
December 18, 2009.
it’s been exactly one year today that you changed my life. and I still couldn’t thank you enough.
you ended up introducing me to the love of my life. I wish things would have ended differently before you left us. I didn’t like us all on bad terms. I didn’t mean to come between your friendship.
don't.
don’t get on my case for being all “emo” and shit today. you don’t fucking understand. my dad and I share a bond that I couldn’t even begin to explain. we have the same birthmark in the same exact spot. jesus fucking christ. if I want to be all “emo” and miss my dad I fucking can. so how about you take whatever is shoved up your butt and fucking choke on...
Saturday.
Saturdays have never been the same That memory keeps repeating in my mind The ringing phone I’ve called to change my world And emptiness that words cannot define Are these memories that have overtaken me Once again I’m right here on my knee’s.
Winter.
These nights in vans, These nights in bars, Don’t mean a thing with empty hearts, with empty hearts. An angel got his wings, And we’ll hold our heads up knowing that he’s fine. We’d all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime. Friends stay side by side, In life and death you’ve always stole my heart, You’ve always meant so much to me, it’s hard to...
The Suit.
still one of my favorite bands. still my favorite band to see live. still does my favorite cover. still awesome.
they stayed at the apartment last night and it was such a nerdfest. Black Ops, Halo Reach, Halo 3, everyone on their laptops. it was great. and sorry boys but when I say I rape at video games, I RAPE at video games. didn’t mean to threaten your masculinity xD
remember.
Don’t turn your eyes If you leave now You won’t remember me You weren’t meant to do this on your own Just stay close and I’ll keep you from leaving Just move slow and I’ll keep you breathing They chased us to the end of the dock Stay with me we can outlast night Just stay awake I know we can I know we can make It out alive Make It out alive.
I'm in the wrong body.
I must have stumbled in.
If I make it to heaven I may be as bloody as hell. Would you still take me? I’m afraid that you might say, “Depart from me, I never knew you.”
All the love I want to give, Gets caught between every rib. What does that make me? I have good intentions, But no exit for them to come out right through.
we're all sinners.
I’m afraid I’ve stayed in this place for too long without a purpose And I feel I was put here to fight for you, but it’s the light, it’s the light I can’t see anymore.
I’ve been tearing everything in this room apart, telling everyone that you’re something to me but what’s done is done. This abandonment can’t be held against me. But...